HELLO EVERYONE, THINGS WERE VERY GOOD AT ONE POINT. I WORKED THINGS OUT AT HOME. MY OB GYN ROTATION WENT WELL, SO GOOD THAT I WANT TO WORK IN THAT AREA. BUT THIS PAST THURSDAY A TRAGEDY STRUCK. MY FRIEND CALLED ME AT 7 AM SAYING HER NIECE(WHO SHE IS RAISING) AND SHES 6 MONTHS OLD WAS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH AND WASNT BREATHING. SO SHE TOLD ME TO MEET HER AT THE ER. WELL WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WE THOUGHT IT COULD HAVE BEEN THE SHOTS SHE GOT FROM THE DAY BEFORE. WELL AT 913 AM THE DOCTORS CAME OUT AND SAID THEY DID ALL THEY COULD TO BRING HER BACK. SHE DIED AND THAY SAID HER FEVER WAS 106 DEGREES. SO A FEW DAYS WENT BY AND WE GOT THE PRELIMINARY RESULTS FROM THE CORONER. HER DEATH WAS RULES SIDS. MY FRIEND FELT A LITTLE BETTER KNOWING IT WASNT HER FAULT BUT SHE STILL FEELS GUILTY. SIDS IS SUCH A SILENT KILLER AND SHE FELT SHE TOOK THE RIGHT STEPS TO PREVENT IT. WELL THIS FRIDAY IS THE BABYS FUNERAL. TODAY WE ARE GOING TO BUY HER OUTFIT TO LAY HER TO REST IN. THEN THIS WEEKEND WE FACE THE TASK OF CLEANING OUT THE NURSERY. THE LAST FUNERAL FOR AN INFANT I ATTENDED WAS MY NIECE/GODDAUGHTER AND SHE DIED 2 DAYS BEFORE TURNING 6 MONTHS. IT HAS BEEN 8 YEARS BUT I STILL MOURN THE LOSS. MY OLDEST SON WILL BE 8 THIS SATURDAY AND I FEEL GUILTY CELEBRATING HIS LIFE WHILE MY FRIEND IS MOURNING THE LOSS OF A CHILD SHE WAS RAISING. I KINDA WANNA PUT MY SONS PARTY ON HOLD FOR A WEEK OR SO. MY FRIEND NEEDS ALL THE SUPPORT SHE CAN GET, BUT THEN WHAT ABOUT MY SON? I AM IN HARD SITUATION RIGHT NOW. I AM PRAYING GOD GIVES ME THE RIGHT ANSWERS. I HAVE NOT LEFT MY FRIENDS SIDE SINCE THE BABY DIED AND I AM ALL SHE HAS SO I FEEL SUPER GUILTY AND A LITTLE SELFISH.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE I LOST 3 POUNDS AND WHEN THIS STORM IS OVER IM GONNA GET BACK IN THE GROOVE AND LOSE MORE WEIGHT. I THANK YOU ALL IN ADVANCE FOR LISTENING.
SIGNED,
PATRICE
