Quote of the day

To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination.
- Albert Einstein

quote of the day

"Other people and things can stop you temporarily. You're the only one who can do it permanently."~Zig Ziglar

Matthew 5:44

44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
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"Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that
hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute
you."
Matthew 5:44

WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS

HELLO EVERYONE, THINGS WERE VERY GOOD AT ONE POINT. I WORKED THINGS OUT AT HOME. MY OB GYN ROTATION WENT WELL, SO GOOD THAT I WANT TO WORK IN THAT AREA. BUT THIS PAST THURSDAY A TRAGEDY STRUCK. MY FRIEND CALLED ME AT 7 AM SAYING HER NIECE(WHO SHE IS RAISING) AND SHES 6 MONTHS OLD WAS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH AND WASNT BREATHING. SO SHE TOLD ME TO MEET HER AT THE ER. WELL WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WE THOUGHT IT COULD HAVE BEEN THE SHOTS SHE GOT FROM THE DAY BEFORE. WELL AT 913 AM THE DOCTORS CAME OUT AND SAID THEY DID ALL THEY COULD TO BRING HER BACK. SHE DIED AND THAY SAID HER FEVER WAS 106 DEGREES. SO A FEW DAYS WENT BY AND WE GOT THE PRELIMINARY RESULTS FROM THE CORONER. HER DEATH WAS RULES SIDS. MY FRIEND FELT A LITTLE BETTER KNOWING IT WASNT HER FAULT BUT SHE STILL FEELS GUILTY. SIDS IS SUCH A SILENT KILLER AND SHE FELT SHE TOOK THE RIGHT STEPS TO PREVENT IT. WELL THIS FRIDAY IS THE BABYS FUNERAL. TODAY WE ARE GOING TO BUY HER OUTFIT TO LAY HER TO REST IN. THEN THIS WEEKEND WE FACE THE TASK OF CLEANING OUT THE NURSERY. THE LAST FUNERAL FOR AN INFANT I ATTENDED WAS MY NIECE/GODDAUGHTER AND SHE DIED 2 DAYS BEFORE TURNING 6 MONTHS. IT HAS BEEN 8 YEARS BUT I STILL MOURN THE LOSS. MY OLDEST SON WILL BE 8 THIS SATURDAY AND I FEEL GUILTY CELEBRATING HIS LIFE WHILE MY FRIEND IS MOURNING THE LOSS OF A CHILD SHE WAS RAISING. I KINDA WANNA PUT MY SONS PARTY ON HOLD FOR A WEEK OR SO. MY FRIEND NEEDS ALL THE SUPPORT SHE CAN GET, BUT THEN WHAT ABOUT MY SON? I AM IN HARD SITUATION RIGHT NOW. I AM PRAYING GOD GIVES ME THE RIGHT ANSWERS. I HAVE NOT LEFT MY FRIENDS SIDE SINCE THE BABY DIED AND I AM ALL SHE HAS SO I FEEL SUPER GUILTY AND A LITTLE SELFISH.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE I LOST 3 POUNDS AND WHEN THIS STORM IS OVER IM GONNA GET BACK IN THE GROOVE AND LOSE MORE WEIGHT. I THANK YOU ALL IN ADVANCE FOR LISTENING.
SIGNED,
PATRICE

Love

Since you have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the spirit in sincere love of the brethren,love one another fervently with a pure heart. 1Peter1:22



What is the first thing you think of when you hear the word love ? Love is a large subject,impossible to contain in a few words. A woman s heart yearns for love. As you mature you discover deeper loves. Love requires a real commitment, you can t fake love. When you ve tasted the real thing, no substitute will ever satisfy you again. Real love always brings transformation and change into your life. When the love of God touches you,the revolution will be more profound than anything you have ever known. The qualities of love include : Commitment- the willingness to make yourself available is part of love. Compassion - Sympathy with others suffering is part of love. You want to help and heal those whom you love and those whom God loves. Attention - Gratitude and appreciation blossom when you choose to cultivate love in your life. Faith- You believe that love is possible in spite of all the things that try to convince you that love is a lie. Faith moves you
beyond the darkness of cynicism and doubt into the light of love s possibilities. Trust - You recognize that every relationship has a higher purpose and every circumstance has meaning,even when you don t understand or when you struggle with unanswered questions. Love commands you to put your trust in God, not in your own reason or abilities. Surrender - When you let go of your preconceptions,love teaches the lesson surrender. Love knocks down walls,frees you from the prison of self,and leads you into a deeply surrendered relationship to God.

Things to do : Reach out and be a blessing to someone, Contact family members and let them know you love them, Do one act of kindness anonymously , Write in your journal about a time when love touched you deeply.

This commandment we have from him: that he who loves God must love his brother also. 1John 4:21

My labor and delivery

My contractions got even stronger and were about 2 mins apart so the dr said come on to the hospital. Well when I got there at 8:38 pm I was only 1cm dilated. So she said she would come check me in a few hrs to see if I progressed. Well two hrs later I was only 2cm. Normally they would send women home for this but since I had good strong contractions and it was my second labor, they admitted me. Finally I was able to get up and walk the floor. I had to walk for atleast an hour at a time before getting back in bed. I kept feeling stronger contractions and I felt more pressure in my inner thighs. So I went to my room and got the nurse to call my dr in. Dr checked me and after just an hour of walking I was 4cm. So she sent me walking some more. Well I walked for hours and things began to slow down. So I was given an IV with pitocin and was offered pain meds. I declined cause my goal was to go natural. I started to have back pain from a car accident yrs ago so my dr gave me a little nubain , it was such a small dose that I didn't notice a change in the back pain. Finally I was 7cm and my water hadn't broken. My dr asked me if she could rupture it and I declined. I wanted to walk a little more first so I walked for another hour. She checked me again and I was still at 7cm so I let her break my water. Soon as she did things went very quick. She left to check on a patient after setting up the table. Well she was gone about 5mins and I felt the urge to push so I pushed my call button. The nurse came in and said "you were just 7 breathe though it and don't push. I doubt you're 10 already". So I made her get my dr to come in. Well I was indeed 10 cm and just started pushing while my dr was changing gloves. After one good push his head was halfway out. His heart rate started to decline so she gave me oxygen and said let's hurry and get this baby out. Well another push and his head and shoulder was out. My dr said reach down and pull your baby the rest of the way out so at 9:23 am july 30,2008 my baby was born. That was the best feeling ever. I didn't care that he was bloody and gooey. I put him right on my stomach until my hubby cut the cord. The nurse was nice enough to let him lay with me while she did his apgar. He scored 9 on the first one. While I delivered the placenta I handed him over for his second apgar and he got another 9. I was so happy to see my baby was healthy after all I went through to bring him into the world. He weighed 7lbs 15.6 ozs and was 22 inches long. My labor was longer with him than my first born but I'm glad that I got to do it natural though. I just kept myself relaxed and focused on breathing the whole time. If any of you are pregnant right now don't think you have to go natural. If you need meds take them, it doesn't make you any less of a woman. I just went natural because I did it with my first and I have a fear of epidurals. I'm a nurse myself and I hate needles. Maybe by getting poked so much in nursing school lol. But its your birth so do it how you want to. Make a birth plan and make your dr and the staff stick to it. After all it is your body and your baby. Thanks for reading,
Patrice
PS if you have a birth story that you want to share or a pregnancy or ttc story, I would love to hear it. Just send me a comment with the direct link to the blog post of just simply comment to this post and tell me all about it.